i thought i was a scary nightmare , but ....

i wish it was just a scary nightmare .

i wish i was only just a dream .

a dream when i wake up in the early morning ,

everything is gonna be clear & fine again , finally .

but .....

it was not a dream ,

though nightmare also .

it is a reality , in fact .

A REAL !

i have to ...

have to learn to lose .

to lose you.....

and i don't know what to do anymore .

i lose control .

i can't stand to keep thinking 'bout you .

but i can't stand to take a risk .

a risk...

risk to lose you .

all the times i cried .

cry over & over again .

i lose my mind .

i guess ,

we'are not meant to be , absolutely .

i hope u'r gonna be happy with ur love ones .

i smile when u'r smile 

& 

i cry when u'r cry .

now ,

there's nothing could ever i do .

it's only just farewell .

goodbye dear ...